Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Making the Transition

Written on July 31st:

So it's the Monday after a busy week last week, and now I'm sitting here twiddling my thumbs and avoiding packing. A part of me wishes I booked my flight for earlier in August, because to be honest I'm bored out of my mind here alone. I feel gross, my skin is breaking out, it's hot and humid out, and I just feel unmotivated.

My family is taking the news of my impending departure as well as to be expected. My sister, who's 12 years older than me, was shocked that I was leaving so soon. I explained to her that I was bored out of my mind, she agreed that she could understand that but I don't know. Maybe she can't. My sister and I have always had an odd relationship, with a 12 year age difference and only having the same mom I guess it's to be expected. But as I get older we're becoming more like friends, only sometimes she seems like one of those bossy "I know how you should live your life" kind of friends. My dad is taking it well, he's the one sane person I can always count on. He'll miss me but like he said I have to give it a try, and be with my husband. He also told me how my mom hated it here when they moved to Florida in 1986 and spent all day on the phone with her family in New Jersey, it was only after being down here for two years that they began to re-adjust. That's settling to know that I'm not the only person who's ever done this (and I knew I wasn't before) but knowing my parents went through something similar is comforting.


I wrote that about a week ago, now I'm starting to get cold feet. I know its not like I'm going to change my mind or anything, but I'm nervous about moving. I know it'll all be ok and I'll adjust to it, but I hate the unknown, even when its semi-known. Pete's parents are throwing us a Post-Wedding BBQ on August 27th, for all the family/friends who couldn't fly over for the wedding...it should be fun :) The Friday before that Pete is taking me out on a date lol we never got to have a final date while being engaged so this is our first proper date as a married couple ;) Should be fun :)

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