Sunday, November 27, 2005

Hope everyone had a Happy Thanksgiving! Mine was ok. Got some Christmas shopping done on Friday, and looked around in the mall yesterday. I'm officially really really broke! Luckily I don't think either family is going all out for Christmas this year (Pete's are saving up to come over for the wedding in June :) ) so we'll have a low key Christmas all around. I had all intentions of finishing my Christmas cards but that'll have to wait I guess. Been feeling depressed and unmotivated which is understandable I guess. And on top of everything I have a cold/flu bug! The next two weeks are going to be hell as far as school but then I'm off to England for 2 weeks so that's something to be happy about! yay!

Saturday, November 19, 2005

New Template

How does it look? I tried it on a PC in the library yesterday and it looked all messed up but i'm my mac and it looks fine now. If it looks messed up let me know, and if anyone knows anything about HTML let me know how to fix it if it looks messed up. Thanks!

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Feeling Human

I know I get enough sleep, I guess my complaint is that the scheduling of it is all over the place. Yeah I should go to a DR but I have no time right now and won't until after Christmas. Maybe then, I dunno. Slept from 8pm til 12am last night then went back to bed and got up at 6:45 I can live with that. So today I feel human.

Monday, November 14, 2005


I haven't had a good nights sleep in almost 4 months. I've never been on to have trouble sleeping...remember I was the girl who was sleeping on a bench in Disney at Grad Night back in the day. Thin lines have started to appear under my eyes, the dark circles are getting worse. I don't want to sleep like this, but I can't help it. I try staying up, sometimes I make it until midnight but then I sleep and am up again by 7am. So at night I'm exhausted and usually crash around 10:30 - which means waking up at around 6:30. When I'm home I usually crash on the couch watching TV ie last night I probably feel asleep around 9:30pm and kept waking up and watching bits of Law and Order then dozing off again. Argh. So I was up at 5:45am this morning. Argh Argh Argh. Should probably read or something, I stayed at home last night so I have to drive back to school this morning, after my brother leaves for school I'll probably shower and get going so at least I get something accomplished by 10am today.

Friday, November 11, 2005


The other day my brother said how he had senioritis in High School. Ah simplier times when everything was great. What I remember most about HS is eating lunch...on the bench next to the stairs or out on the sunny sidewalk when it was cold. Or on half days when we use to go to Steak n Shake. Anyway HS seems a million years ago now. And I'm getting senioritis of a different kind, the college version. Which causes prolonged staring at light sockets while THE MOST ANNOYING TEACHER plays air guitar and says the same wacked out phrases a thousand times. And becoming aggrivated when another one gives no structure and changes due dates faster than the speed of light. Oh and last but not least, wasting so much time on the internet or talking to others, complaining about all of this that you could be done with something important like one of the 3 papers you have to write by this time next month. By then my second-to-last semester will be over.

I feel a strange nostalgia for this place recently, but another feeling of suffication from it. I'm outgrowing it, the professors are becoming more annoying, more people know my name. It takes me a long time to become comfortable in places, but as soon as I become completely comfortable I usually out-grow them. Perhaps comfort = conformity and that's something I'm just not ready for. God knows what I'm going on about. Better go read something useful before I quit school altogether and become a traveling dog groomer or something. Now I'm just talking crap...

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

The Music Outside Head

Actually the music is the punk/rock variety which is blaring from someone's ipod in the computer lab. All I want to do is finish my paper for tomorrow. I'm freezing. I mean COLD. I've been getting this type of cold a lot lately, that kind that doesn't really involve putting on more clothes but warming ones insides. When I was little my mom had to cut the feet out of my pajamas (you know the ones with feet) because my feet got hot and sweated. They still do. But my finger tips and toes get as cold as ice. Must be a circulation problem or something. Well will end this here and try to concentrate on my paper and not the music that's playing outside my head.

PS Trip went well. Wedding was beautiful...some pics of the scenery on my flickr badge, the other family/friends ones are on my flickr account. If you want to see those, ask to be my contact and if I know you I'll let you see them :)

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Planes and Automobiles

What's up with the font? This computer is showing all arabic and symbols instead of text! Weird! Anyway, I'm off today into the wild blue yonder of umm Newark! Fun fun. I'm excited about the wedding but I'm getting sick again/still :( My ears hurt, my throat hurts and my eyes are heavy. Argh. Traveling with my two brothers should be fun! I'll take pics and tell you all about it when I get back! Laters (expression I've stolen from Sara!)

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

After 21 years I should know...

I don't do naps. I either go to sleep or stay up. So when the novacaine from this morning's QUICKEST FILLING EVER made me nauseous and tired all day and I finally laid down around 5:30 I should have known I wouldn't get up in time for dinner. Three and a half hours later I wake up, and my first thoughts are "well I missed dinner," along with "just get changed and go back to bed." Both of which I ignored and got up. This time change stuff is always fun because I have to readjust to it being pitch black by 9pm. Together with my Sprite and Goldfish crackers I contemplate my inability to take naps, and re-evaluate going to bed after all. Its one of the many aspects of myself I use to blame my mom for, because she always told the pre-school teachers not to let me sleep during naptime because I would be awake all night afterwards. Back then I went to bed by 7pm though, when I would suddenly go up to my daddy and say: "bed time!" With outstretched arms waiting to be carried to bed. As my mom use to say, my body clock was amazing and she could set the time by me. If only that would be beneficially now, with clogged ears and a dry/medicine tasting mouth. Wearing my snoopy pajama pants that make me think of freshmen year and the promise of a college-education. I'm about done now, and just wish I could set my body clock to tell time again. And that my mom was here to read it.