Thursday, September 01, 2005

So my procrastination tactics begin early...I should be reading Madame Bovard but I'm blogging instead...surprise, surprise.

I moved into my new room on Tuesday, and classes began yesterday. I'm taking 3 english/literature classes and 1 communications class. I have 12 novels to read, in addition to other text books. Plus I'm doing the paper again this semester, so I actually have stuff to put in my portfolio in the spring.

My sleep patterns still haven't regulated...last night I had a nightmare which wasn't even about my mom. Actually my mom was still alive in it, but my niece and nephew died. Talk about shocking, I almost had to call my sister up to make sure they were fine. Other than that I don't have dreams, I just can't sleep. At home I was getting into a pattern of one night I wouldn't fall asleep until 1am and get up at least around 7am at the latest, and then next I would go fall asleep on the couch watching tv around 8pm and wake up, and go to bed around midnight, and then get up around 6am. Since I've been at school though I've been falling asleep around 9pm...waking up around 11:30 and then going to bed...and getting up around 6:30am.

Other than that things are good here, I still feel like there's a part of me missing. I don't feel as lost as I did when it first happened, I feel a bit more independent, but a bit detached from everything as well.


Anonymous said...

hi sweety.. dont get angry at my suggestion.. but maybe you can have a few chats with a school counselor?
a month hasnt passed and you're taking a lot onto your plate, and dealing with lots of emotions... plus soon the stress of school ,etc...
its just a littel food for thought ..
as for Mdame bovary.... i love the bit where her beautiful face is described, including the black fluffy mustache abover her lip.. must be a french thang! lol

Anonymous said...

Hi Juls
Big hugs from me!
I hope your sleep improves, maybe if it doesn't in a few days you should see the doctor see if the has some suggestions, you need your rest.
For what its worth I think you are coping amazingly well all considered, you are a strong fighter and I know you realise the true worth of life, so good luck with your 4th and final year, and I hope things settle a bit more for you.
Here if you ever need to talk or anything at all,
Gem x

Juls said...

Thanks Lizzy & Gem

Sleeping better...last night I went to bed at 11pm and got up at 7am :)

I've considered seeing someone but tbh I'm tired of talking about it at the moment.