I have started another blog to record my eating and such starting today (as I have started the Atkin's Diet) here it is if anyone cares to look: Jul's Wellness Journal

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Feeling alright today. Going to my sister's later to see the babies and have a little BBQ. Tomorrow I will *try* to start the Atkin's Diet - see how that goes!! Pete and I are alright now ;) Wow today its 2 weeks from the time I left England and it seems at least like 2 months! I really hate that. Some of my clothes still smell like his laudry detergent - I love that smell! Anyway best be off!

Ugh pissed off.

Pete was suppose to send me the shirt I bought for my friend Sara for her 20th Birthday, I left it there by accident when I was packing and he said he'd send it last weekend. He didn't get to the post office in time last Saturday so I was alright with that, he said he would send it this weekend. So I reminded him last night on the phone about it, did he send it this morning ? Of course not! Why ? He forgot !!! He said he woke up and his mum was talking to him about his grandparents' birthdays next weekend and he didn't remember about sending the shirt until after the post office was shut. Of course he then went to his friends and met me on there. He was being all lovey dovey - now I know why. He said he was sorry and made a little sad face but COME ON !!! You might think I'm over-reacting but he always seems to forget things or not have time to do things for me and it pisses me off. Anyway after he told me about that this morning I just said I had to go and I didn't want to fight about it so I would talk to him later online. I'll get over it but not right now. Men are stupid.

Friday Five (www.fridayfive.org)

1. How much time do you spend online each day ?

Oh wow let me see. During the week I chat with Pete from 3pm til 5:30pm so at least 2 and a half hours, thats if I haven't been on earlier in the morning. Usually as soon as I wake up I go online - really bad habit that I'm sure will stop when school starts up again and I have actual stuff to do with my life! On weekends I chat with Pete from 8am until about 10am and then later in the afternoon about 4pm to about 7pm usually. On average I spend about 5 hours online a day on the weekends and 2.5 a day on the weekdays - well thats the time I spend chatting with Pete - the rest like blogging is more. I waste my freaking life on here!!!

2. What is your browser homepage set to ?

The Earthlink homepage thing.

3. Do you use any instant messaging programs? If so, which one(s) ?

I use AIM on this computer and then on my personal comp when its connected to the internet (hasn't been since April) I have AIM and MSN but I usually just have AIM on.

4. Where was your first webpage located?

Geocities, one of those blah template things where you just enter your info in and a few pics.

5. How long have you had your current website ?

Ummm I started blogging about a year ago I guess a little less than that, I've had this blog since my other one kinda got messed up in early April I think. I've had my homepage (www.geocities.com/princessjuls02) for about a year or so I guess.

Feel bleh/depressed. Talked to Pete on the phone earlier, I felt like calling him so I did. I started crying because just hearing his voice made me remember what it was like to be with him (it hasn't even been 2 weeks and it feels like an eternity since I was with him), and it just sucks. I'm sick of being in and LDR I think 5 bloody years is enough!!! I want to be freaking normal ! AH!!! Don't mind me just going quietly insane. Went to Blockbuster and got a previously viewed DVD for $12, "How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days" shall comment on how it is tomorrow or something. Haven't walked yet today - I should do to keep on track but I don't feel like it - want to just eat crap and sleep. Grrrr.

Morning. Here at the motel wasting time until my dad and I can clean - yay my life is so exciting huh ?! I might have found out why I can't seem to lose any weight even when I do my walking everday (I am starting to do that again but didn't do it yesterday as I was busy and then when I got home I was too sore from the night before.) Anyway the reason might be the medication I take for my speech impediment - its actually an anti-depressant but it helps with my speech as well. I think thats it because I was reading in a book my mom got me about the Atkin's Diet (actually I think Pete's mum has the same book as she has lost weight on it), it says that some anti-depressants (it named the one I'm on) slow down or prevent weight loss and might even cause ppl to gain weight. I told this to my mom this morning and she asked on of her friends about it who was also on the same medication and she said it caused her to gain weight. So I'm not just really stupid and don't know how to exercise! Woo hoo at least I feel better now! Anyway might have to go to the DR and tell him about this stuff and see what else I could do for medication. Ugh I hate doctors though! Well thats about it for now.

Hi. Just got back from spending the day hanging out with my friends hehe. We met at the mall and then walked around there for a few hours, of course bumping various old class mates including two girls that graduated with us - I got to show of my engagement ring some more which is always fun! Then we went to the Outback for my third engagement dinner (I'm telling you if your not engaged you bloody well should do as you get great cards, nice gifts, and go out to eat with all your family and friends.) Our friend Becca was able to meet us there and have dinner with us which is great as I haven't seen her since last November! I did forget her bday though oops it was earlier this month! Ah! I shall have to send her an ecard later! Anyway then Becca had to go and we went to Barnes and Noble where I looked through various wedding magazines and books, including one I wanna get for Pete "The Complete Idiot's Guide to Being a Groom" or something hehe. We then headed next door to Best Buy where I saw The Second Season of Felicity on DVD which I really want! (Pete will probably get it for me either for our anny in Nov or Xmas hehe) Then we ended up going to Pet Smart and looking at some fishies and I saw something else I wanna get for Pete but I didn't get it as I will probably forget I have it by Christmas! It was a really good time and it was so good to see them! I officially asked them to be my bridesmaids (not that I have any other friends anyway hehe) so they were like "sure yeah!" Anyway thats about it for now - didn't get to chat with Pete today as I was out :( I miss him grrr.

Oooo I am back to walking away my pounds - my butt aches so bad though as I did 2 miles last night before showering and going to bed! Ouch! I should do at least another 2 tonight but I dunno if I can take it with the achiness! Might just wait til tomorrow morning and do 3 - guess I shall see!! Ta-ta for now!

Hi. I have a headache :( Today I got up at like 5am to go with my mom to my sister's house to watch my niece, she was home from daycare with a fever, while my sister and her husband went to her operation (cosmetic surgery.) So I'm tired! Might be the reason for the really bad headache. So I'm drinking Welch's White Grape and Raspberry Juice which is really good! I had some in England while I was there - though I don't think it was white grape but regular grape.

Jennie was saying how Americans can't understand her R's hehe I remember me not not understanding when English ppl say R's - shall have to take notice of it more when I am on the phone with Pete. I forget how he sounds really - as I haven't talk to him on the phone since I've been home. Its only been about a week in a half but it feels like AGES. Grrrr. Anyway getting off here and chatting with Pete for awhile ;)

This is a pic of my yorkshire puds from last night ;) They were a bit burnt on the top but I did leave them in longer than was called for because the rest of the dinner wan't ready...will try again maybe tonight hehe.

Ah the Scent of Yorkshire Puddings Baking...

So this morning I got in the mood to cook, and then in the mood for yorkshire puddings so I found a really simply recipe online and printed it out and ta-da my yorkshires are backing - yummy! Okay so I only had enough batter to make 6 as the muffin pans I used were 'giant' ones which I didn't know until I was pouring the batter in them! I told Pete I'd have to tell him how they turn out tomorrow - as he loves them (so do I!) And his mum said that if he was moving here then I'd definitely have to know how to make them ;) So I shall have to impress Lin if I am successful tonight! I shall know in 25 mins - ooo just sneaked a peak - they are all puffy!!! ;)

Morning Darling Ones. Hmph whats new ?! Yesterday I went with my mom and one of her friends shopping, and we ended up going to lunch for my 'engagement dinner' hehe. Gotta love this engagement stuff! Presents, cards, dinners, money - its like having a birthday for an extended period of time! Anyway we went to this new place in a nearby town (NSB for Sara and Tiff who know where that it) called 'the garlic.' Obviously as the name of the place says they LOVE garlic! They have this bread that you get and with it comes a whole clove of garlic that you mash up and add pepper, balsanic vinegar and olive oil to and dip the bread in it - yummy! Anyway the food was good when we eventually got it. First they didn't have what my mom and her friend ordered, then they didn't have the side item they wanted, and then when I got my chicken it wasn't cooked! And for those of you who know I got food poisoning from uncooked chicken 2 years ago in England so I'm a bit crazy when it comes to that. Anyway my chicken stuffed with cream cheese, goat cheese and spinach was really good. Then we went to a few other stores...they just opened a Super Target near by! YES you heard me right!! So we went there but didn't get to explore too much as it was getting late, I'll have to go there again and get me some Starbucks yay! But in there I got a scrapbook and silver press on letters, I think I'm getting into scrapbooking, as my mom has this whole scrapbook kit that she never uses so she gave it to me so I will try that out soon and hopefully not suck too badly at it ;) Also I got a little rug for my dorm room - bright yellow with colorful circles, and a metal free standing shelve thing for the bathroom in the dorm. Did I tell you I saw my dorm last Weds ? Wow its tiny! I gotta get in touch with my roommate soon and see who is doing and bring what - hopefully I'll get DSL in the dorm or my own phone line so I don't have to limit my online time - as you all know that was a big topic last year with my roomies. Anyway best be off for now! ta-ta.

Evening. Ooo today I got a surprise bargain which is the best kind in my opinion! I stopped into Payless while my mom was in another store in this shopping plaza, I was looking for sandals for the rest of the summer and into autumn (which really doesn't exist in FL too much.) After some looking I found a cute pair that fit pretty good, they're brown leather sandals without backs to them - they were $12.99 which I thought was a pretty good price at that moment. So I went up to the register and the woman there rang them up and guess what the total came to... something like $4.26!!! What the heck ??!! I dunno how it happened either - but that was the only pair of that sandal that I saw in a few different size areas so I guess it was the last of a sale item that wasn't marked! Yippee.

Wow in November Pete and I will be a couple for 5 years!! Where did the time go ? I have no idea! And for those of you who don't know yes I was 14 when we met. Actually we don't remember when exactly we met online but we think it was around late Oct or early November and we started becoming interested in each other romantically mid November or so we think. All we know is early December my house caught on fire and we didn't have any contact which each other for a month so it had to be about mid Nov. Anyway I have been looking online for romantic/personalized pressies for him...I have a few ideas but I can't really post them here as he might see them ;) Wow I feel really old and pathetic that we have been together nearly 5 years now but I'm only 19 so I guess I'm not! I have to remind myself of my age a lot! I know I'm weird. Anyway best be off here - eyes are hurting! Need new glasses!

Morning! Wooo hoo I actually slept through the night. Okay so the jet lag isn't finished but tylenol PM really helps ;) Alright I know I shouldn't take it unless I have pain and need to sleep but needing to sleep is enough of a pain! Besides I only took one so its not that bad. Hehehe. I'm glad I slept and I don't have that 'I can't sleep cause of jetlag headache' yay. I wanna do something fun today like something with my friends, but of course we never know Tiff's schedule so I need to call Sara later and see! There are some good movies out like American Wedding (3rd movie sequel thing to American Pie.) and Johnny English (with Rowan Atkins! Mr Bean!!) hehe. I think Sara would go for either but I dunno about Tiff! We shall see!!

Awww v. cute picture of Pete ;)

Friday Five - Traveling

1. Where was the last place you traveled to, outside your own home state/country?

I traveled to England on June 27th (got there on the 28th) and just got home this past Sunday (actually early Monday morning.)

2. What is the most bizarre/unusual thing that's ever happened to you while traveling?

Ummm I saw Mr. T (the boxer guy) in the St. Louis airport while I was waiting for my connection to London. I took pics of him (they're on my MSN group if anyone wishes to see them and is a member hehe.)

3. If you could take off to anywhere, money and time being no object, where would you go?

I would probably go to Ireland with Pete ;)

4. Do you prefer traveling by plane, train or car ?

Plane I guess. Seems to be the quickest unless you get delayed grr.

5. What's the next place on your list to visit?

Ummm I wanna go to Ireland with Pete sometime. I think my family is thinking about going to Pennsylvania the day or so after Christmas to visit my uncle and his family. Other than that I'll probably be off to England next summer if not before then to visit - see what happens ;)

Left-handed Love Story

Pete and I are both left handed, which is pretty cool if I do say so myself ;) So for curiousities sake I was looking up left-handed websites and such hehe. Famous lefthanded couples: Nicole Kidman & Tom Cruise, Bruce Willis and Demi Moore. (Okay so both couples are divorced - hope that doesn't say something about lefthanded couples hehe.) Other lefthanded famous people: Prince William, President George Bush (senior I guess), President Bill Clinton, and lots more! I also found out lefthanded people don't usually live as long as right handed ppl and are more prone to disease and illness :( Oh well I will think its cool! Lefties rule! hehe

Found this quiz (http://www.innergeek.us/geek.html) on Sarah's blog hehe.

I am 4.33925% which means I'm a Poser! I suspect Pete will be more of a geek as he is into games and such so I shall get him to take it when I chat with him! Funny how one of the questions said if you had dated someone online or married someone online ;) Which means I am and know lots of geeks!

Okay Pete is 5.71992% and is also a Poser hehe.

Some Daily Zen (I need all I can get!)

Friday August 1st
"Where is the farthest place that you have ever traveled? How did you get there? Would you go back?"

Ummm hard to say what is the furthest because I could say that Essex, England is the furthest I have gone from my current home. But then when I was in England we went to Amsterdam which would be the farthest from my home in Florida but since I had been in England it wasn't very far from there. HMPH. I got to England on planes and I got to Amsterdam on a ferry and a coach for 10 hours! UGH! I will definitely go back to England (probably next summer.) But I doubt if we will back to Amsterdam unless we had at least a weekend there and could fly there and had a lot of money to stay at all the best places.

Awww v. cute pic of my nephew ;)

Sleep Deprivation - Day 4

Here I am up at the crack of dawn again!!! Actually my clock in my room said it was about 1am when I woke up, so I thought I only slept about 3 hours but then I came in here and the oven clock says 6:40am Ugh. I'm sure the time change is much harder to get use to here, can't really explain why - I just know I don't have trouble sleeping, though I might just go to bed early when I'm there and get used to get that way. Anyway. I've been on a comfort food kick - I guess battling the depression demons in my head. I really have to start my WATP again soon. I only got 13 miles done while I was in England, but then again Pete and I walked A LOT, especially when we went to places like London and Amsterdam. I've been looking at wedding sites and such, totally making myself crazy as I know we're not getting married until I'm out of college probably. Anyway today my mom and I are going to St. Augustine, where my college is, to make sure all the financial aid stuff is taken care of. Oh and guess what I found out yesterday ??? My sister is getting a boob job next week! I won't go into how stupid I think it is - but whatever - I'm sure she knows I would feel this way and therefore didn't tell me about it. UGH. Anyway I'm going to try to go back to sleep for a few hours! Wish me luck!

Good Afternoon hehe. I went back to bed this morning from about 10am until like 1pm so I feel good - just got out of the shower so feel all refreshed hehe. Still haven't unpacked - oops. I took a pic of my engagement ring and messed around with it in PSP while I was at Pete's - so that is the end result. I have to get in touch with my new roommate soon - this year I'll only be sharing with one other person so it'll be totally different from sharing a room with 2 girls and a bathroom and living room with another 3 - less space though ugh.

Morning. I'm sleeping later and later which is good - stupid jetlag grrr. I went to bed at like 9pm last night as my body was thinking it was 2am and now I am up at nearly 7am because I think its noon. Yesterday my mom, brother, and I went to my sister's to see my niece and nephew. I hadn't seen them since a little before I left for England, and they have gotten so big!!! Hehe I told my niece I would set her up with Pete's parents friend's grandson, Oliver, who's nearly one hehe okay so I'm arranging a marriage for them hehe. I took some really cute pics that I may add to my msn group sometimes - maybe not. I have been thinking of opening a second group for my family photos only and keeping my current one for pics of Pete and I. I have been using an old photo album that we haven't used to make a scrap book of all the engagement cards we got, and movies stubs and such from this last trip hehe. Overall I think I'm getting adjusted to being back here in FL, and in the US in general, it seems like ages since I left the UK - ugh. I miss Pete so much - so all I want is for Xmas to arrive really soon hehe. I already have a few ideas on xmas presents for him, and I want to find a place online that sells Christmas crackers because I don't think you can bring them in your luggage anymore from the UK and if you do you have to take the cracking thing out - which defeats the whole purpose hehe. I also want to try to make Yorkshire puddings mmmm hehe.

You can go Home Again...

And I have - obviously. Yesterday we work up at about 7:30am (GMT) and took showers and got ready to go to the airport. Pete and I played another game of badmitton (sp?) before breakfast was ready. Funny how I wanted an english breakfast so much and finally got one the day I was leaving hehe. Anyway we left the house at about 9:45am. We got to the airport and waited about 45mins in the very long check-in queue for American Airlines. They had to ask my security questions and then I checked in (this is where chaos struck). Then we walked around a bit and I got Cadbury chocolate for my mom and some little bits to bring on the plane. A little before 1pm I went through the departures gate thing, wavy to Pete and his mum. I cried a little off and on all that day and the days coming up to it. Pete started getting all teary just as I was about to leave and I had to hit him to make him stop because it would only make my crying worse hehe. ;)

The flight from London to St. Louis was alright - long and boring. I arrived in St.Louis at about 5pm (CST). Then I went through to immigration, and was suppose to collect my baggage and then go through customs...but guess what ?! My big black duffle wheely bag wasn't there! :( So I talked to the airline person around and she said to tell them in Orlando when I got there. So then I went through Customs, there was a long line of people coming through so they wanted make some go through a Secondary Inspection and I was one of them - hmph. So after that I went into another queue for another security inspection before I got to go to the Gate area. I got to the gate area at about 6:15pm (CST). So I called my dad and told him I was there and I'd call him later when I was about to board. My plane was scheduled to leave at 7:47pm, first I checked the thing and it said 8:15 and then the next time it said 8:50pm! UGH ! I got some bits and pieces to snack on including some advil for my very bad headache :( I called my mom a bit before we were about to board, so she could get ready to leave for the airport. I finally boarded at about 8:30pm (CST), I really don't remember too much of the flight as by then I was dosing off from exhaustion - but it was only a little under 2 hours long so that wasn't bad. At midnight (EST) we arrived in Orlando yay! I went down to the baggage claim (not because I had any to claim - as we think its still in London - but to meet my parents.) I walked around a bit and didn't seem them so I thought I'd look about side in the part where the cars pull up...I walked a bit and saw a van that looked liked my mom's, and then she kinda jumped out of it hehe. They were actually just going to check the screen to see what time I was coming in as they called AA and they said it was suppose to come in at about 12:20 hehe. So then my mom went to the baggage desk with me and the guy said "well if its not here its probably in London, especially if you didn't pick it up in St.Louis" - Ummmm DUH!!! So he took down my info and gave us a number to call if it doesn't get delivered here today - luckily all my valuable stuff was in my carry-on but I still want my baggage!! Ugh I think next time I'll pay more and go direct on Virgin Atlantic again - I've never had these problems with them! Anyway I'm coping well being back home - guess it helps that I know Pete didn't have anymore paid holiday time so if I stayed longer I'd be in the house all day or walking down to the shops and such - basically bored out of my mind. Well best get off here. Hope everyone had a good weekend hehe. On Saturday Pete's family had a BBQ and set up the badmitton net and Pete and I played 4 or 5 times and he won all the times grrr so we played before I left yesterday and I won!! yay!! I will add pics to my MSN Groups soon! Bye!